Don't be upset by the results you didn't get with the work you didn't do.

March 7, 2013

It's interesting to think about how discouraged I have been about my weight loss for the last 15 years. Since I graduated high school, I have steadily gained about 40 lbs-60lbs and I have spent the whole time lamenting and why me-ing. I know why. I eat when I am emotional and when I'm sad and when I want to celebrate and and and... I stopped exercising when I was a senior and only briefly got back into it a few years ago.

I am not going to say it feels different this time, like some magical trip wire has turned something on in my mind. It feels the same. I still want to eat all the time. ALL THE TIME. I still want to sit on the couch and watch Doctor Who all the time. But I am not letting myself. I am living day to day. I set small goals every day. I do not think about the huge amount of weight I need to lose or then number of minutes I want to cut from my mile time. I have those big goals written down so I know what they are, but I focus most of my energy on the day to day goals. Don't eat the snacks in the teacher's lounge. Run today. Drink water today. Complete small goals and make small changes and celebrate small victories.

I am not going to ever stop wanting t stuff my face with nachos, but I can recognize that I have control over my actions and that in the long run, eating those nachos will not make me feel better. In fact, it will probably make me feel worse.

The hardest thing about change is believing that you can do it. Being complacent is the worst emotion I can have. I can make small changes in my life that make a difference today.

Three simple rules

March 6, 2013
1. If you do not go after what you want, you you'll never have it.
What do I want? I want to run a 10 minute mile consistently. I want to be in a healthy BMI range of 22-24. I want to be able to ski all day without getting dehydration sickness. I want to run a half marathon.

2. If you do not ask, the answer will always be NO.

3. If you do not stop forward, you will always be in the same place.
Step out the door to run. Step away from Quest in order to challenge myself. Step towards the plane, and travel to Europe. Step towards Regis University to finish my novel.

My First 5K

First 5K 42:11 95th in my age group

13:12 per mile
Ran the entire way
Thankful for two healthy legs that can run and carry me through my life

There was a moment on the run where I was alone and I looked around and saw the snow covered mountains and felt the cold air in my lungs and I just heard the pounding of my feet on the road and I knew I could do anything I set my mind to...it was so amazing. I will hold onto that feeling and go there again when I feel discouraged.

Goals

March 1, 2013

Here is my goal schedule:

3/28 177.5
4/28 170.0 - Cherry Creek Sneak time goal - 38 m
5/28 163.0 - boulder boulder time goal - sub 80 m
6/2 - 6/3 Avon Walk
6/28 156.0
7/28 149.0
8/10 Georgetown to Idaho Springs Half Marathon time goal - sub 2h 40m
8/15 145.0
8/22 leaving for Europe - final goal 140!

Current BMI is 29 - goal is 23 by the beginning of September

What are my biggest obstacles:
Being tired - go to bed earlier
Feeling Overwhelmed by choices
Instant gratification

Let's begin again

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Well here I go again. I bought new workout clothes, a journal and joined weight watchers. I have been running pretty consistently for the last 6 months, with some hiccups here and there.

My thought for today "when I eat 'bad' food, I feel powerless. When I eat good food and exercise, I feel powerful."

Here's to a new beginning.

I am firing my nutritionist

So I decided to fire my nutritionist.  I have had marginal success working with her, but it may be because of my trainer and my increase in working out rather than working with her.  She is super knowledgeable and really nice, but I need someone who is going to call me on my bullshit. I am super manipulative when it comes to food and she does not call me on it.  If my food journal was accurate, I would be losing weight.  So Jim, my trainer is going to be taking over that part as well.  He will totally call me on my bull and I see him every week so there is more accountability.

I will let you know how that goes in a week or two.

Wow - its been a long time!

I have started working with a nutritionist and I have been working with Max and Jen's trainer, Jim, twice a week. It's been pretty great - I am losing slowly but I feel very strong. My next step is to add cardio at least three times a week on top of the training workouts. I'll check back in at my next nutritionist appointment.