Incredible Change Happens

Mondays.  Weigh in day.  I didn't lose this week.  But what did I gain?  I learned I need to drink a TON of water.  I learned I can run 4 miles without stopping.  I learned that I can still do an hour of yoga - even if I was in child's pose for a good bit of the hour.  I leaned that true friendship doesn't die, it may go on hiatus, but is always there when you need it. I learned I will have just as much fun hanging out with people if I drink club soda and lime instead of alcohol.

What do I have control over?  Who I choose to spend time with.  I can be honest and say "No, thank you."  I have control over when I will eat, as long as I plan ahead and have good snacks in my bag and at my desk.  I have control over what time I go to bed. I have control over what I choose to put in my body.

Overall, I'd say I "gained" a lot this week.

"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for."

Don't be upset by the results you didn't get with the work you didn't do.

March 7, 2013

It's interesting to think about how discouraged I have been about my weight loss for the last 15 years. Since I graduated high school, I have steadily gained about 40 lbs-60lbs and I have spent the whole time lamenting and why me-ing. I know why. I eat when I am emotional and when I'm sad and when I want to celebrate and and and... I stopped exercising when I was a senior and only briefly got back into it a few years ago.

I am not going to say it feels different this time, like some magical trip wire has turned something on in my mind. It feels the same. I still want to eat all the time. ALL THE TIME. I still want to sit on the couch and watch Doctor Who all the time. But I am not letting myself. I am living day to day. I set small goals every day. I do not think about the huge amount of weight I need to lose or then number of minutes I want to cut from my mile time. I have those big goals written down so I know what they are, but I focus most of my energy on the day to day goals. Don't eat the snacks in the teacher's lounge. Run today. Drink water today. Complete small goals and make small changes and celebrate small victories.

I am not going to ever stop wanting t stuff my face with nachos, but I can recognize that I have control over my actions and that in the long run, eating those nachos will not make me feel better. In fact, it will probably make me feel worse.

The hardest thing about change is believing that you can do it. Being complacent is the worst emotion I can have. I can make small changes in my life that make a difference today.

My First 5K

First 5K 42:11 95th in my age group

13:12 per mile
Ran the entire way
Thankful for two healthy legs that can run and carry me through my life

There was a moment on the run where I was alone and I looked around and saw the snow covered mountains and felt the cold air in my lungs and I just heard the pounding of my feet on the road and I knew I could do anything I set my mind to...it was so amazing. I will hold onto that feeling and go there again when I feel discouraged.

Goals

March 1, 2013

Here is my goal schedule:

3/28 177.5
4/28 170.0 - Cherry Creek Sneak time goal - 38 m
5/28 163.0 - boulder boulder time goal - sub 80 m
6/2 - 6/3 Avon Walk
6/28 156.0
7/28 149.0
8/10 Georgetown to Idaho Springs Half Marathon time goal - sub 2h 40m
8/15 145.0
8/22 leaving for Europe - final goal 140!

Current BMI is 29 - goal is 23 by the beginning of September

What are my biggest obstacles:
Being tired - go to bed earlier
Feeling Overwhelmed by choices
Instant gratification

Let's begin again

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Well here I go again. I bought new workout clothes, a journal and joined weight watchers. I have been running pretty consistently for the last 6 months, with some hiccups here and there.

My thought for today "when I eat 'bad' food, I feel powerless. When I eat good food and exercise, I feel powerful."

Here's to a new beginning.

Weight Watchers Journal Day 7

I lost 3 pounds this week. I feel good about it, but I have such a long way to go that I am struggling to feel joy in such a huge accomplishment. The things I did right this week were to track everything I ate on the online journal. It REALLY helped me get things straight. I also cut WAY back on sugar...which actually made me less tired and less hungry. So I guess I had a good week. I will keep it up, because I have too. I do not want to end up on the biggest loser!!!! I hope you will keep up with my journey and help me along the way. I need the support of my family and loved ones. Here's to 30 or so pounds!!!!